Bi And Large

I'm feeling sad, today. Reading a blog on my daily list reminded me of all that I have given up to be here, and that starts the grief I can't quite shake off. Grief, and more than a little bit of feeling that familiar sense of suspicion: Perhaps, if I looked a little bit more normal, as I am supposed to, maybe my life would be a little bit more normal and my normal needs would be met, just like that. Maybe not. But it is always there at the back of my mind, wondering.