Bi And Large

Yesterday, OMG. Typical patient load for a full day at our office is 8 - 9 patients in a day, depending on the length of their visit. Yesterday I saw and treated SIXTEEN people. And not short visits either, mostly full length visits with shorter ones packed all around them. I was flat out running, all overlapping visits, no break. No lunch, always behind, no bathroom break, just running from one to the next trying to keep up. It was insane. And today I am wiped out! Luckily Fridays are an off day, so I can use the day to just recover.

I am grateful that my boss was agreeable to me going back to part time hours after my coworker gets back, because the full time craziness is hard for me to handle. However, I have been offered 2 full time days, and that is hard. I would much rather do a full week of part time days. The long days are what wipes me out and what I am trying to avoid. I don't want to complain, because 1) I am lucky to have a job, I know; and a job that I enjoy at that. and 2) because my work was awesome to just say 'sure' when I asked about going part time and to accomodate that for me. But 2 full time days is kind of the worst of both worlds. I will still have the problem with being completely wiped out and overstimulated / overwhelmed / overtired by the full on day of running, and it will mean that I need to take 2 days out of the rest of the week as 'recovery' days to get my self and abilities back after each day. My kids will still be struggling with the effects of long days, and part of what I was trying to avoid was getting Iris up so early and being away from them for quite so many hours at a time. And then really, 2 days a week is like, 16 hours a week. That's REALLY part time, and pretty much no pay. So while it is great that I will get to drop my hours, the solution offered is not exactly what I had in mind. I'll still be struggling and all we will gain really is less income.

ANYWAY I am being positive today! It is a beautiful spring day, and I am home with my girls (well, once Amy gets home from school) and we are headed to the dog park before thunderstorms roll in later this afternoon. The grass is green, my hyacinths are blooming in the front yard making everything smell sweet, I can have all the windows open. I am glad to be here!